Thursday, 6 August 2015

Let me introduce myself...

Firstly, let me say hello and thank you for clicking onto my new blog!

Secondly, (I'm adding this in after) let me apologise for the essay length of this post! I couldn't stop writing and felt everything needed to be said. I want you all to know everything I think you need to know about me and my background, as it's what makes me ME. But I promise my future posts will be more succinct, less about me and more about fun things! ;)

Most of you will probably know me from my youtube channel, "Freddy My Love". If you are a subscriber, let me take this opportunity to say the sincerest thank you. I tend not to talk about this in videos because I feel I'm at risk of being cringey and I like to keep everything light hearted and non emotional. But I truly am deeply, deeply grateful for those of you who have chosen to support me on this new journey. I started this venture at Christmas, and in the last six months my life has completely changed. I am the happiest I've been for years and am finally starting to love life again, be positive, and look forward to the start of every day. And none of this would have happened if it weren't for the people like you giving me the chance. By watching my videos, subscribing and commenting, you've opened so many doors for me and honestly changed my whole life and I couldn't be more grateful. So from the bottom of my heart, I thank you so much. 

If you are new here, then you will have no idea what I'm talking about, so let me explain! (Warning: slight life story coming up!) My name is Freddy, I am twenty and from London. I started a fashion, beauty and lifestyle channel on youtube in December last year, for many reasons. 

My whole life, I wanted to be an actress. Ever since I can remember. I wanted to sing and dance on stage and absolutely nothing else. When I was ten, I started a prestigious theatre school in London, called the Sylvia Young Theatre School. I'm a modest person and not one for self-praising, but to this day I am still so proud of my younger self for gaining a place at that school. Thousands of children applied to go and I was one of only thirteen to be successful. We used to do our "normal", academic studies like Maths, English and Science on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays. Then for the rest of the week we had our, what was called, Vocational studies (singing, dancing and acting.) Obviously for a child/teenager who loves performing this was an absolute dream for six years. The school also had an agency, where we were sent out regularly for auditions for West End shows, TV and film roles, and adverts etc. For a little girl who's biggest dream was to be in Mary Poppins, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang and Les Miserables, this was just so exciting.

The problem with child acting, or at least it was a problem for me, is directors like to cast children that look a lot younger than they actually are. Think, why would you use a seven year old actor when you can use a ten year old who is more intelligent with more experience who LOOKS seven. Towering over my school friends and looking like a young teenager rather than a little girl, I quickly learned I wasn't going to be a successful child actor. I'll never forget one day when I was fourteen, my entire class went to audition for the Sound of Music in the West End and I was the only one who couldn't go because I was too tall. Don't get me wrong, I worked a little. I did a few adverts, performed at various events, even sang live on the radio, and got to be an extra on Harry Potter. But never anything really "dream fulfilling". 

Meanwhile, whilst all this was going on, I was constantly getting scouted by modelling agents. I was super tall for my age and at the age of twelve I started getting approached by scouts and agencies. But I was at stage school and so my family just disregarded it. But after a few years of not really doing any acting work, my parents thought it would be a good idea to look into it. So I visited a few agencies and finally chose my favourite. Sylvia, our principle, wouldn't let me start straight away (I was fifteen), as I was about to start GCSE's, and as we only had three days a week to study anyway where other schools had five, and we regularly missed school for auditions and shows etc, I couldn't take any more time off. But I started modelling when I left school at sixteen. 

Leaving school was difficult. I'd been in a perfect bubble for six years, attending an incredibly special school where everyone was like minded and respected and loved each other. I was desperate to further my musical theatre training at a college, but my parents insisted I furthered my academic education and went to an A Level college. Obviously, they have always been one hundred percent supportive of what I wanted for a career, but wanted me to have a back up of academic qualifications, just in case. Which I knew was the total right idea, but never the less it devastated me. I had always been really clever, but never cared for academics, especially after being at a school where singing and dancing was just as, if not MORE, important. My school was high pressure and strict, and extremely difficult and challenging at times, but it was SAFE. It was home, and we were all a family. The reality of going somewhere new, especially to study something I had no interest in was daunting and depressing.

I ended up going to a college in South Kensington, Chelsea. It didn't go so well. I hated the girls there, and they didn't care too much for me either. I had never come across such rude, entitled, stuck up, horrible people in my life. They treated the teachers with such disrespect, like they were "beneath" them, and it made me so uncomfortable. I used to absolutely dread walking through that door. I went to sleep at night feeling sick, and woke up in the morning feeling even worse. I used to be sat on the toilet for hours on a Sunday night, (gross) sick with nerves, crying, begging my mum not to make me go. Life had always been so bright and bubbly and brilliant, and suddenly a dark cloud was passing over me. Everything was horrible. I missed my friends, my teachers, my HOME. And the worst part was knowing I would never get it back.

I lasted a term before my parents decided enough was enough. The day before college after Christmas, I sobbed so hard they didn't have the heart to send me back. So, at seventeen, it was time to start work. I had a good acting agent, and a modelling agent, everything would be FINE! I decided to get a part time job as well, and I started working at Hollister. I was so nervous to start. My college experience had convinced me that there was something wrong with me, like I had no social skills or something. But I made so, so many amazing friends at Hollister and there was never a dull moment, and I loved it. Everyone was so lovely and we all got on so well and had so much fun. Although after three years of working there I grew to hate it, and quit, but I think that's pretty natural after a long period of time in that type of job.

My acting career never, (clearly!) never really took off. I did some amazing work and had some fantastic experiences, such as a Disney pilot, (google "tv pilot" if you don't know what I mean) various short films, guest roles in TV shows, and a lot of music videos and adverts. But I never got my "big break". 

Modelling wasn't what I expected either. Yes, I worked pretty regularly, which was good for me financially. I did a LOT of shoots for magazines and adverts etc, and hated every minute of it. Since I was sixteen my whole life has been walking into a room full of people, all eyes on me looking me up and down, judging what I look like. You are not a person, you are a product. Your teeth aren't white enough, your hair isn't long enough, your hips are too wide. I was either not pretty enough, or TOO pretty, as apposed to the "quirky/different/striking" model which is trendy. A thousand castings, ONE job. Rejection multiple times a day. Walking into a waiting room full of stick thin girls and feeling like an elephant, holding back tears. So many girls want to be a model, but if you asked most of the girls who actually do it, they would advise you otherwise. I used to love having my photo taken, and I never used to be insecure. Obviously as a teenager you feel self conscious and there are always things you want to change about yourself, but modelling made me hate myself as I grew into an adult.

One day, I was filming a tv fashion commercial. There were about ten models, and some bloggers/youtubers had been invited along to take part in the commercial. I remember being totally shocked at how differently we were treated. That's when I knew I just didn't want to do it anymore. 

I'd been watching makeup and hair tutorials on youtube for years. I used to sit in bed on sick days and weekends and just watch loads of them consecutively without even trying to copy. I never imagined myself ever uploading similar kind of videos, until I saw how big youtube was getting. I have always had a massive passion for beauty and fashion, and I suddenly had a massive urge to jump on the exciting youtube train! It took me a few months to have the courage to even film a video. I'm a very camera confident person, after years of acting and modelling, but this was different to anything I'd ever done before! "Putting yourself out there" is often seen as embarrassing and uncool. God knows why, that's absolutely something that needs to change and thankfully I think it is starting to. But I eventually got the courage to film my first video. 

I was really lucky. I had an amazing, helpful, supportive boyfriend, who sadly I am not with anymore. We parted as best friends, after being together for four and a half years we both decided it was time to try and live life without each other. But I will always love him, and will never forget how he was always there for me and none of this would ever have been possible without him. Forever indebted to him. 

He had a brilliant camera and editing software, and he helped me film my first few videos and get set up. A few months later my channel had absolutely snowballed, and to this day I have no idea how or why. I didn't tell any of my friends of family. I promoted it on my "depop" account where I think I got my first few hundred subscribers. It took me a couple of months to reach ten thousand and after that it completely blew up. A couple of months later I was approached by Gleam Futures, the managers of Zoella, Alfie Deyes etc, and signed to them. The day I signed that contract my life changed. I quit Hollister, and stopped both modelling and acting, which was a hard thing to let go of, but I know it was the right decision and acting is still my long term goal, and I like to think of youtube as a platform to help me get there one day. 

I've read a lot of comments here and there, some quite hateful, and although I would never respond directly to hate as it only encourages it, and to be honest I don't want to give those awful people the time of day, I do want to clear a few things up. I never BOUGHT subscribers. Lots of people find it hard to believe I grew so "big" in such a short time. Believe me, or don't, but I can tell you honestly that I didn't even know you COULD buy subscribers. It sounds laughable, and it offends me that anyone would think I was that desperate. Some people believe I was "scouted" by Gleam from modelling agency to start youtube. Also, obviously untrue. Dom Smales from Gleam saw potential in my channel that he wanted to grow and explore. Simple. There's speculation that Alfie Deyes helped me grow my channel. Alfie is my best friend's cousin but I had never met or really spoke to him until very recently, after I signed with Gleam. I hate having to say all of this but it hurts me to read things like that, and I feel like I have to defend myself. However, I refuse to defend myself against the terrible things people have said about me and my personality, as I, and anyone who has ever and will ever meet me, will know that they are not true, and I have COMPLETE faith in that. My channel blew up unexpectedly. Yes, I got lucky. Some people do, some people don't. And believe me I had 3 years of not having any luck, so it also hurts when people begrudge me for the positive things that are happening for me now. Especially when I work SO hard filming and editing my videos to make sure they are a good standard. I take so much time and effort into this because I love it, and when it's undermined in that way it infuriates me. I will never understand why people feel the need to conspire against somebody, and think of a million reasons why their success isn't genuine or deserved. Why do people feel the need to pick holes in you and highlight all your flaws, and make up lies about you when they can't think of anything else horrible to say. I would never write something hateful about anybody, and it upsets and confuses me as to why anyone would. 

When I read something spiteful or mean about me, my heart drops to my stomach. Yesterday I felt so down after finding a certain gossip forum website where people were being so, so nasty, and saying so many things about me that weren't true. Honestly, not a SINGLE thing they said was true and it made me want to scream. But then I read through your tweets and comments on my video and it truly warmed my heart so much and some of them brought me to tears. (Happy tears!) The kindness of people continues to amaze and humble me. The fact any of you take a minute out of your day to write something sweet and kind on my video, or instagram picture, fills me with such joy I can't explain it. It's so easy to hide behind a keyboard and hurt someone's feelings, and the way you all go out of your way to make me feel so good and special is overwhelming and magical. Teenage girls have a bad reputation for being catty and bitchy, and whilst I know there are PLENTY of those around, I have been so pleasantly surprised by those of you who couldn't be further from that. I call you all angels because that's what you sometimes are to me. I know I sound over the top but it truly means so much. So thank you to all of you ANGELS who support me, I'm forever grateful. 

So! I'm sorry this was so long, and if you have made it this far, thank you! There was a lot I wanted to say and get off my chest and hopefully now you have got to know and understand me a little more, and all of those horrible things can be cleared up. I'm loving this journey so much, and so excited to expand into writing aswell- as you can PROBABLY tell I really enjoy writing too! ;)

SO much love for you all. My angels! 

Kisses,
Freddy
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  1. I absolutely looooooveeeeeee your videos, personality, features, room, and uniquness. i have never seen someone so unique! and after everything you have been through you deserve everything you have and so much much more!! i cant wait to see you so far on youtube and actually being a part of your journey is amazing! keep up the amazing work freddy!πŸ’ŸπŸ’Ÿ ily

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  2. I love your videos so so so much!!! I believe that you have worked so hard to get to where you are now and that you deserve to keep growing. You are an inspiration to me and i can guarantee you that you've inspired other people too. Keep working hard Freddy and you will go far. I wish you the best on your journey. Lots of love - Sofia

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  3. I had just written a big comment and my phone went off so let me start again! I m absolutely sure you re about to become huge on youtube! Ever since i clicked on one of you re videos i m obsessed! In fact i ve watched all of them three times! Not only am i in love with you re videos but with your personality too! You are so lovely modest relatable and unique! Just by watching you talk i feel like i ve gained myself a friend! Sounds crazy but i do! If you ever end up reading that i want you to know that you utterly unprecedented and beautiful! Keep doing what you love girl! We re all with you! Lots of loveπŸ’•πŸ’–
    Eva

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  4. This was fantastic to read and learn more about you and your feelings! You should look into getting bloglovin and then it would be a lot easier to follow you and be updated when you publish : )

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    1. I'm not a fast reader, l spent 30 min reading your amazing post. You deserve the best for your passion and hard working, just ignore people who want to let you down and keep forward.



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  6. Dear Freddy,

    First and foremost, I want to say thank you. Not just for creating inspiring and quite frankly, amazing videos, but for being the young woman you are.

    I stumbled upon your YouTube account accidentally, but I can honestly say that it was a happy accident. Your videos give me such hope and inspiration and by just watching them (usually more than once..) you manage to make me smile. So, please keep doing what you're doing and push yourself to the max because you are capable of so so much more.

    Please don't let anyone get you down or make you feel that you are "beneath" them because that really isn't true. We all have different circumstances, experiences and situations that leave us feeling hurt, unwanted or broken and although I can't say that I've been through what you've had to (can anyone?), I am able to say that I understand the pain you've had to put up with, because unfortunately, I've been through quite a lot as well. But I believe that these experiences do make us into stronger people and yes, there are people out there who get some sort of thrill out of hurting people and making you feel like shit, but not all people are like that and believe it of not, there are actually some amazing people out there. You've just got to find them. I know that it's easier said than done and putting your trust into people when you've been hurt is not something that can be easily done, but remember that we are all, and always will be, here for you, no matter what.

    You're only a young woman and you already have done so much with your life (you should be so proud of yourself, even if you are modest!). I know you've had some bad experiences and you haven't managed to achieve your ultimate goal just yet, but please, just try and reach as high as you can, and then a little higher. Because then you will find such magic, possibility, and opportunity's. And maybe even cookies πŸͺ

    Always remember, you can't spell "beautiful" without "you". So, stay the woman we all love: the beautiful, talented, unique, bubbly woman you are and keep making those amazing, inspiring videos we all love.

    I know you might not see this but even if you so much as glance as this, I really do hope a smile spreads on your face and you are able to forget, even for just a little while, what you've had to deal with. You deserve to be happy and I know that sounds cringey and SUCH a clichΓ© but I don't give a fuck. I'm just being honest.

    Stay beautiful and safe,

    Fe πŸ’– xx

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  7. Love your videos and blog! You are an amazing and beautiful woman both inside and out so never let anyone tell you differently! There will always be haters who have their own issues-jealousy, low self esteem, and general unhappiness in their lives-just let them be. Be happy and know you are a wondrous person!

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  8. You didn't get lucky, my dear. It's clear after seeing the quality of your videos that your channel would grow fast! And you're just so lovely! I usually don't read long introductory posts like this but yours was totally worth it. I'm so happy I found your videos, wishing you all the best, and looking forward to the next posts!

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  9. I enjoy watching your videos, photos, and surprisingly reading your posts too!! your videos make my day, and i wish you could post them more than just once a week. LOTS LOTSA LOVE

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  10. Freddy, you're a gorgeous person inside and out! Not only are you stunningly beautiful with wonderful taste, you are clearly a very genuine and down-to-earth person, which shines through in your work. I hope I've achieved as much as you have by the time I'm 20! Can't wait to see your future work. Lots of love, Sophie.xxxx

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  11. You are such a lovely and inspiring person and I really enjoy watching your videos and reading your posts and I absolutely love your style! You are an inspiration for so many people! Keep doing what you love and try to do not care about those people who don´t like what you are doing!

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  12. You are such a lovely and inspiring person and I really enjoy watching your videos and reading your posts and I absolutely love your style! You are an inspiration for so many people! Keep doing what you love and try to do not care about those people who don´t like what you are doing!

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  13. You are such a lovely and inspiring person and I really enjoy watching your videos and reading your posts and I absolutely love your style! You are an inspiration for so many people! Keep doing what you love and try to do not care about those people who don´t like what you are doing!

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  14. Just found your blog and Chanel and I think you are amazing and so sweet but can I ask how did you get all them subscribers in 7monthes it's amazing luv u xxxxxxxx <3

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  15. I adore your YouTube channel and have just stumbled across your blog. I enjoy watching your videos so so much, as the quality and effort that is put into them is outstanding. Honestly, I would say that those people that are being catty towards your growth and personality are purely jealous of how far your channel has grown in such a short time. But that's just my opinion. Thank you for making such lovely videos and please continue writing on this beautiful blog of yours!!

    Lauren xo

    www.xlaurenslifex.blogspot.co.uk

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  16. Dear Fred
    I am almost 40 (still 2 years to go haha) when I watched first time your video..I was like...I have to subscribe. .ur face is just too sweet not to....u bring sunshine...u r very beautiful young girl...you just keep up...enjoy ur life and what you do....as per haters ..They r just jelous πŸ˜‰ people subscribe you because they like you not bcs they hate you...always head up....
    Kind regards Inga πŸ’ŸπŸ‘πŸ’Ÿ

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  17. Dear Fred
    I am almost 40 (still 2 years to go haha) when I watched first time your video..I was like...I have to subscribe. .ur face is just too sweet not to....u bring sunshine...u r very beautiful young girl...you just keep up...enjoy ur life and what you do....as per haters ..They r just jelous πŸ˜‰ people subscribe you because they like you not bcs they hate you...always head up....
    Kind regards Inga πŸ’ŸπŸ‘πŸ’Ÿ

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  18. Dear Fred
    I am almost 40 (still 2 years to go haha) when I watched first time your video..I was like...I have to subscribe. .ur face is just too sweet not to....u bring sunshine...u r very beautiful young girl...you just keep up...enjoy ur life and what you do....as per haters ..They r just jelous πŸ˜‰ people subscribe you because they like you not bcs they hate you...always head up....
    Kind regards Inga πŸ’ŸπŸ‘πŸ’Ÿ

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  19. Hi Freddy!

    What a lovely, honest post! I have been following you for a while now (not in a creepy way!!) and I must say you are one of the most down-to-earth people out there. Your videos always make me smile after I've watched them and you have one mean click when you snap at the window! Don't listen to the meanies, they're not worth it! Have fun in Mexico...Arrrriba! Much love x

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  20. Can't wait to start reading posts from you! I love your youtube channel and am very excited for your blog!
    Much Love,
    ~Michaela~

    www.mbastylesbeauty.blogspot.com

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  21. Freddy, πŸ’Ÿ
    I first watched one of your videos about 2 months ago and let me just tell you that I'm in love!! You seem like someone that I would be best friends with. I absolutely love your videos!! Thank you so much for making them and this blog. I can't wait till the next one.

    Lots of love and wishes!
    ~Bre~

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  22. I really loved your post. You are really honest and im really happy that you are in a happy place now, I hope it goes on like this because you deserve it so keep going! I'll keep up with your blog, it looks like the kind that I like to read.
    Xx
    Andrea | www.andreader.blogspot.com

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  23. Such a lovely post! I've been subscribed to your channel for a few months now, but I never really knew much about you (apart from that you have a lovely personality and great taste). I'm exctied to follow your blogging journey as well as your youtube one! :) x

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  24. Hello, Freddy!^_^
    You are a beautiful and gentle soul who deserves all the happiness in the world! Do not listen to gossips and hurtful comments as they are usually written by mean and spiteful people who are just jealous of your success and beauty. I subscribed to you in the first place because of you soothing voice, pink theme (I also love pink!), beautiful smile and that traditionally beautiful face and posture ^_^. I am glad to have discovered a strong woman who has a lot of potential and I am eager to see what you're going to achieve in the future. You are more than your looks and I am sure every subscriber of yours can see that >:D< Even though I am from a less developed eastern european country and I will never have the means to dress like you or use the same makeup products, you serve me as an inspiration and model in life ^_^. I cannot wait to read your blog posts in the future and see you grow as a person.

    Kisses,
    Andreea

    P.S: I would have never guessed that we are the same age ! You act so mature and collected!

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  25. Hello, Freddy!^_^
    You are a beautiful and gentle soul who deserves all the happiness in the world! Do not listen to gossips and hurtful comments as they are usually written by mean and spiteful people who are just jealous of your success and beauty. I subscribed to you in the first place because of you soothing voice, pink theme (I also love pink!), beautiful smile and that traditionally beautiful face and posture ^_^. I am glad to have discovered a strong woman who has a lot of potential and I am eager to see what you're going to achieve in the future. You are more than your looks and I am sure every subscriber of yours can see that >:D< Even though I am from a less developed eastern european country and I will never have the means to dress like you or use the same makeup products, you serve me as an inspiration and model in life ^_^. I cannot wait to read your blog posts in the future and see you grow as a person.

    Kisses,
    Andreea

    P.S: I would have never guessed that we are the same age ! You act so mature and collected!

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  26. Hello, Freddy!^_^
    You are a beautiful and gentle soul who deserves all the happiness in the world! Do not listen to gossips and hurtful comments as they are usually written by mean and spiteful people who are just jealous of your success and beauty. I subscribed to you in the first place because of you soothing voice, pink theme (I also love pink!), beautiful smile and that traditionally beautiful face and posture ^_^. I am glad to have discovered a strong woman who has a lot of potential and I am eager to see what you're going to achieve in the future. You are more than your looks and I am sure every subscriber of yours can see that >:D< Even though I am from a less developed eastern european country and I will never have the means to dress like you or use the same makeup products, you serve me as an inspiration and model in life ^_^. I cannot wait to read your blog posts in the future and see you grow as a person.

    Kisses,
    Andreea

    P.S: I would have never guessed that we are the same age ! You act so mature and collected!

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  27. Dear Freddy,

    At firts, I am from the Netherlands so my English is not good at all. But I want to say I think you are amazing and you really have to ignore all the negative reactions from other girls. They are all jealous I think. So am I, hihi, but in a positive way. I really love your style and how you look because I'm seeing myself. I really love to see your lookbooks. I also look forward to a room-tour! If we knew each other, we would definitely be friends.

    Love,

    Nicole

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  28. Hey Freddie, you are a lovely person and deserve happiness. You are a great role model for young girls. Just keep doing what your doing πŸ˜€

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  29. Hey Freddy, hope you day is going well :) i read your whole introduction and loved it. you know sometimes a dark grey cloud comes over your life and it blocks the beautiful suns rays from touching you. Unorttntly I'm was in one of those situations and still kind of am but now its only partly cloudy(hahah) so i have can feel some of the sun. The first video i saw of you was your everyday makeup tutorial. At that point you had 400 supporters(subscribers). Really if you think about the size o a crowd of 400 people, THATS A LOT OF PEOPLE. And now you have more than 100,000 people that support you, including me haha. The first 10 seconds of the makeup tutorial i knew i was gonna love you :) I find it kind of funny how much you remind me of myself, we both have blond hair and blue eyes, love pinky nude lips, cringe in awkward situations (i hate awkward situations) and i would love to be a disney princess. I remember one day i was at the park and i don't remember why but i was crying, all of the sudden princess aurora/briar rose/sleeping beauty came up and kissed me on the cheek, I'm sure i still have a picture of her bright pink lipstick on my cheek. My dad thought it was so cute and i was instantly cheered up. My favorite princess is my cat named princess hahahah i really do have a cat named princess but my favorite disney princess is probably cinderella because we look the same haha and i found hat in the movies she made the best of every situation and found the good in every bad and i admire her for that. I could go on an on but i should stop, as you can proabably tell i also love writing. I really love your room and would love to see a tour. And i want you to know that i will support you through everything i can through my computer haha but its so weird how you can have a huge connection with someone you've never even seen face to face. i would absolutely love to talk to you more and maybe even meet you some day. I hope you've taken your time to read this it would literally mean so much. If you would care to talk to me my instagram is cupcakdancer (make sure no E in cupcak) or my twitter is @SapphireSim or just search: NotJustAnotherDancer and you should find it. once again i love you freddy and I really mean that you seem like a wonderful person and very lighthearted and fun to be around. It would mean so much( i can't even describe it) for you to contact me or just follow me on a social media site or both haha. hopefully you read this :) see you again hope you have a fantabulosly wonderful day:)

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  30. Freddy, I started watching your YouTube videos when you had only a couple of videos. I'm no expert, but I sure the reason you blew up so fast is because you're extremely likable, bubbly, charismatic, and just adorable! You have a very vibrant personality and come across as though you could be every ones best friend. The haters are most definitely jealous of your success - but that speaks volumes about their own insecurities and is definitely not a reflection on you! I look forward to seeing more from you and can't wait for your next video!

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  31. Oh Damn. Dear Freddy, I'm from Germany, so my english isn't realy good. Sorry for that. I've startet waching your videos cause you had created a little lovely world of sweetness, sprinkling in pink. And I love it. You are such a cute person and now I know your life wasn't as easy as I thought. I hope that you do not ever break up with youtupe and make a lot if these wonderfull videos. I'm sorry, that I can't always comment your videos, but I realy watch everyone. Lots of love from Germnay, Charlotte. xxx

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  32. Oh Damn. Dear Freddy, I'm from Germany, so my english isn't realy good. Sorry for that. I've startet waching your videos cause you had created a little lovely world of sweetness, sprinkling in pink. And I love it. You are such a cute person and now I know your life wasn't as easy as I thought. I hope that you do not ever break up with youtupe and make a lot if these wonderfull videos. I'm sorry, that I can't always comment your videos, but I realy watch everyone. Lots of love from Germnay, Charlotte. xxx

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  33. The moment I found your channel on YouTube, I became addicted. The style of your videos, the way you are all classy and warm, the fact that you make very detailed videos, I'm completely hooked! I can watch the same video again and again, they make my day so much better. You are an amazing, gorgeous and talented person, and people who tell you mean things ate probably jealous or have a boring life. Thank you so much for what you do, I look foward to many videos to come :)
    Γ‰milie xxx (IG: burgundylemon)

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  35. Dear Freddy,

    I've been watching your videos for months and this's the first time I've visited your blog. It's really great to know more about you because I think you're a great youtuber, passionate and true. Through the words, I can tell the kindness and honesty in your heart and soul. Also, it just feels like we're friends! I'm now 21 (same as you:)) and facing a lot of difficulties and disappointments when turning as an adult. Your experience does inspire me. Thank you for being truthfully and telling all of that. Keep it up, Freddy my friend❤

    Kisses,
    Eug

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  36. You seems like a really genuine and smart young girl. I love your videos and I wish you lots of good luck. I know how it is to be a pretty girl... Most girls hated me just from the start. Some even pretended to be my friends. You are young, goergous and talented. You will do great things and I don't have a doubt about it! ��

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  37. I didn't knew you also had a blog!
    When I'm watching your video's, I'm always like, wow she has so the same style as me! Which makes me really happy, because I have never found someone like you at YouTube! I got the same watch, the rose gold MK, but before I knew you had it too! And that is also with a few clothing items, so funny haha! I think you have a really lovely personality and you have to be pround of yourself!
    I have no idea if my english is right, I'm dutch haha! ��
    Lots of love,
    Laurien ��

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  38. you certainly didn't get lucky! The quality of your videos and you being the lovely person you are quite rightly set of hundreds of thousands of admirers. please continue with this blog and your youtube, I love you Freddy!

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  39. I even read your first blogpost and am totally flashed. You are such a lovely and heartwarming person and I think you really are an ANGEL, too! I just agree with everything you said and wish you all the best for the future.
    Maybe you can explain in your next video or blog post how you create your blog and what is important, you know - some insider tips. It would be amazing to learn from you!
    Thank you so much

    Kisses xx

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  40. I have a pretty solid idea as to how your channel snowballed.
    You are soo sweet, beautiful, and genuine; it doesn't take long for people to notice! All your videos are filmed so gorgeously too, the colors, the editing, the quality. The steps you've taken and where you are now are just so inspiring and it's refreshing to see someone with such positivity and kindness, regardless of stress or conflict. I don't mean to sound majorly deep, just want to let you know your subs love you! And I really like your blog also, can't wait to see it blossom even more xo

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  41. Hello, Freddy! I just found your channel a little over a month ago and I'm absolutely on love! I think you are my new favorite YouTuber. I honestly love your videos and get so excited for Mondays now. Thank you for making videos for me to get excited about! Loves you! πŸ˜πŸ˜™

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  42. WOW! I recently watch your channel on YouTube lately, and I noticed you have a blog, so I read the whole paragraphs! It was simply AMAZING!Your story blew my mind! When I first saw you on youtube, I thought you were a model and actress already because you so darn naturally pretty! I never thought it was so hard for you because I thought you're the type of girl who have everything! You are AWESOME and I hope you will continue on your success on youtube!

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  43. I found your channel very recently and so far I'm loving it. Specially how much you seem to like baby pink and your sense of style is slightly similar to what I wish I could dress like. Honestly think people hate you because you're the "typical" beautiful blond who likes pink and is successful, its super easy to hate on someone -take legally blonde as an example, pink and blonde equal stupid for some *eyeroll*
    Anywho, will continue to watch your videos and have subscribed. Sorry to read you and your boyfriend aren't together anymore, even if it was amicable, four years is a long time.
    Wish you the best and hope your acting dreams come true.

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  44. Dear Freddy,

    after I've discovered your channel and have been binge watching your videos since then I obviously wanted to get to know you a little bit more.
    So I went onto your blog and this blogpost and it answered a few questions (like 'wow she's so confident and confident in front of the camera, how's that?' or just being curious about your background etc).

    When I came to reading that so many people (or some, however) write negative stuff about you I honestly think that's out of pure jealousy (please don't get the following sentences wrong, I just like to analyze behaviour etc :) )
    You are a beautiful person, your radiance is absolutely stunning, you seem to have an awesome family, you go on vacation and business trips and - as you said - after a hard time in your life you now are successful and great things happen to you.
    And sad but true, if people are unhappy with themselves or their lives they tend to turn their anger towards people who are in a good point in their lives.
    So their negativity towards you is just a mirror of their own feelings, anger and sadness. Apart from that it obviously hurts when rumors come up or people write hateful comments but maybe you can think about that whenever someone tries to put you down to lift himself up.

    For me you are a talented, beautiful and sophisticated young women and you inspire me already. You are so classy (like how can you even be real!?) and sweet at the same time and I hope that the future will hold only the best for you.

    I wish you a very nice weekend and all my love from Berlin to London,

    Julia

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  45. * confident and professional, sorry! :)

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  46. I respect hard work and good results and although I am not a makeup/girly person, I enjoyed watching several of your videos and picking up some tips. People don't have to agree with each other and can criticize each other, but hard work always speaks for itself and baseless hatred should be ignored. I feel there are undertones of sexism in the accusation that you "bought" followers or that a man must have been the reason for your success.

    Overall, I found this to be an honest and sensitive introduction and I enjoyed reading it.

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  47. Sweet Freddy, I wish you all the luck and joy in the whole universe! May you shine as a princess, always! πŸ’Ÿ

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